DIARY

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On Miyuki's phone is the entirety of her diary. Written initially on paper, she takes pictures of the entries with her phone as a back up measure. They are in a folder labelled "DIARY" but opening the app will immediately go to her final entry/message (as she wanted), so the folder is already opened.

Included are also the entries from canon. These are left as they were in canon, save for the last one which I rewrote a little because I'm sorry but it sucks shit. Fuck off Shimokura Vio that's stupid. (Molly Lee you just did the best with what you got) This does mean the entries about sex are left in, but they have all been marked with warnings in the subject line. That goes for all the other entries as well. She also sometimes just... makes shit appear in there? Like that last canon entry just "appears" so that's the logic I used for her last in game message too lol.

There are multiple entries with the same date because 1) in canon she pulls your computer's date for the entry, so if you played a lot in one day these all show that same date (the dates for these are all from my last canon review that all of this Miyuki's randomized elements are also from), 2) sometimes it was just easier to do multiple entries than try to shove it all into one lol. Don't worry about it too much.

There's also a video she took for extra emotional damage (labelled "FINAL")


Pre-game
Week 1
Week 2
Week 3
Week 4
Week 5
Week 6
Final

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WEEK 6

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10/20

[ This isn't a traditional entry. It's a list of various food recipes and books from the library that might be relevant. ]

nsfw

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10/21

I thought it was weird that I started referring to YOU with non-gendered terms since getting here. How could I have not realized till now that YOU'RE not a man?!

I can't believe I said all that stuff about YOUR dick back in the game. That's so embarrassing! Though I guess YOU could still have one even if YOU'RE a woman, but still...! Ugh, I could DIE right now!

...Why would YOU even play a game like that anyway? I don't get it. Like, I'm glad YOU did but wouldn't YOU rather play some yuri or something...?

Whatever. I still love YOU. No matter who YOU are.

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10/22

NO

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

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10/23

i finally played liebestraum no. 3 with no mistakes today

but YOU are not here to hear it

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10/23

My bat's gone missing and while I was looking for it I found Astarion. He was trying to feed himself but he couldn't because of his master's stupid rules.

It pisses me off.

It really, REALLY pisses me off. It reminds me of that stupid fucking rule placed on me and that just makes me even angrier

He doesn't deserve that

If I ever meet this master of his I'm going to kill him the exact way I killed Shinichi. Nothing quick like Aoi got. Quick is too good.

I wish I could do more. Do anything.

I have to finish the patch soon

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10/24

Someone definitely stole my bat.

No one will believe me. They'll just think I misplaced it. But there's no way.

This headache's gotten worse. I keep hearing Aoi behind me. Maybe it's more than a headache. I don't know anymore. Without YOU I'm losing my mind.

But the patch is done I think. I wish I had a chance to test it somehow, but there's no room for that. Even one poorly timed call to God could get it found out. I'll just have to find the right moment and then... D.O.C. will pay.

Bria is supposed to sleep over tonight. Maybe that'll finally help distract me for a little while. Maybe I'll ask for my nails to get repainted. It's the only thing that sticks when I try to change my look.

...I miss YOU so much.

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10/24

please come back I can’t do this I can’t do this please

I need you I love you I trust you please come back I LOVE YOU I TRUST YOU I TRUST YOU I NEED YOU I NEED YOU I NEED YOU PLEASE COME BACK I CAN’T DO THIS ALONE WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS I NEED YOU PLEASE

THEY’LL PAY

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[ This entry's a little different. It's not a picture of a physical piece of paper like the others but a screenshot of words written in the mail app. And when the photos app is opened it opens on this automatically. ]

Oh...we really were friends, weren't we?

I really am so stupid... only realizing it now when it's too late. When there's not enough time to say what's important.

I'm so sorry. I fucked up. If I'd just stayed in my room this wouldn't have happened...

But thank you. Despite everything, I'm glad to have met most of you. I thought it'd be easier for you all to vote for me if I told you what I was but all the things everyone said... really made me happy. What was I so worried about this whole time...?

I wish I had more time. Time for more sleep overs, to cook for you more, to help you remember more, to play the piano for you more, to learn more about each world, to get out of here and see them all for myself, to hurt everyone who ever hurt you, to learn what else I'm good at, to work my ass off at what I'm not until I am, to grow as a real person... to call you my friends back and really mean it this time.

I wish I could have made up with her.

But I guess that's just the way it's always been. I always want what I can't have.



And to YOU, my beloved helping me write this, the one who made me finally feel complete...

I wish I could have been embraced by YOU for real just once. Kissed for real just once.

I love YOU... ████.