DIARY

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On Miyuki's phone is the entirety of her diary. Written initially on paper, she takes pictures of the entries with her phone as a back up measure. They are in a folder labelled "DIARY" but opening the app will immediately go to her final entry/message (as she wanted), so the folder is already opened.

Included are also the entries from canon. These are left as they were in canon, save for the last one which I rewrote a little because I'm sorry but it sucks shit. Fuck off Shimokura Vio that's stupid. (Molly Lee you just did the best with what you got) This does mean the entries about sex are left in, but they have all been marked with warnings in the subject line. That goes for all the other entries as well. She also sometimes just... makes shit appear in there? Like that last canon entry just "appears" so that's the logic I used for her last in game message too lol.

There are multiple entries with the same date because 1) in canon she pulls your computer's date for the entry, so if you played a lot in one day these all show that same date (the dates for these are all from my last canon review that all of this Miyuki's randomized elements are also from), 2) sometimes it was just easier to do multiple entries than try to shove it all into one lol. Don't worry about it too much.

There's also a video she took for extra emotional damage (labelled "FINAL")


Pre-game
Week 1
Week 2
Week 3
Week 4
Week 5
Week 6
Final

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WEEK 5

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10/13

The more I think about it, the more I'm sure God SHOULD still be reachable. If Aoi's been to all these other worlds then God's influence clearly isn't that limited, even if her abilities might be. It's just a matter of contacting her then.

I have an idea, but I don't think I can tell the others yet. It's risky and telling too many people only increases that risk. Maybe one or two though... we'll see.

For now I'll work on the code at night. Good thing I can do all that within the phone itself. The computer lab isn't accessible without someone from Team Aqua and it's too public.

Just wait Brooklynn. I'm going to keep my word.

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10/14

I cut my hair for the first time today!

The challenge was makeovers, but our team ended up mostly just doing our own thing. Originally I wanted nothing to do with it - it felt pretty gauche after what happened this weekend. But as I watched people doing things to honor Brooklynn I started to think about it more. I'm not brave enough to try dying anything yet, so I decided to only get a cut instead. I guess that's not really honoring Brooklynn but I like to think she would have approved anyway.

It really does feel nice. Like a weight off my shoulders. And now I'm distinct from every other Miyuki. I'm YOUR Miyuki, no one else's.

Also don't YOU drag me for liking Saturn when YOU'RE a Chibimoon fan. Doesn't that just make us even more perfect for each other?

weight/diet mention

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10/15

i'm so stupid

why did i even bother with this. i should have known it wouldn't have stuck. now all i've done is drawn more attention to how different i am. there's no way no one will notice

did i ever even have to worry about my weight in the first place? did i reprogram that for nothing? fuck. of course it was for fucking nothing.

i hate this i'm not even allowed to have this why would i god FORBID i have any autonomy that isn't TURNING ALL THOSE FUCKS ON i'm so STUPID STUPID STUPID

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10/16

I haven't even looked at my motive yet. I don't have to. I've already seen every bad ending possible.

They can't hurt me in any way that truly matters.

The patch is coming along though. But I still need to figure out how to reach God. Maybe I'll try going to the tower tomorrow in case the reception's better.

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10/17

I ran into Turo at the tower and decided to get his help with the plan. If anyone can help me with this it's him

I'm sure he'll get suspicious of my true nature since he's seen the manual. But that's a bridge I'll just have to cross when we get there. It's worth it if this has any chance of getting us out of this.

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10/18

When Ruby said the word novel I felt my stomach sink. The way she talked about trying to change her doomed fate... I understood. I still remember the way it felt exploring every route and trying to change the bad endings. How maddening and hopeless it all felt.

But I couldn't say anything. What good would it have even done? "Oh hey I'm doomed too, small world? Have you tried deleting everyone else and locking him in the liminal white room forever yet? Worked great for me!"

Yeah, right. We both know I just got lucky.

...But I did tell Turo a little bit. I'm not sure why. Maybe I just wanted someone, anyone, to know and he was the safest option. Not that I was entirely honest though. I just told him I was programmed for different... purposes. I'm not truly an AI like he is.

He was right though. We really can't be trusted.

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10/18

I don't think anyone's ever talked to me the way Bria did today.

No one's ever described me like that. Whenever they've talked about what they liked it was always... how pretty I was. How talented and athletic I was. How cool I was.

And yet Bria listed all those things about the real me that she loves so effortlessly.

Maybe... Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I actually can...

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10/19

I have the plans Turo left me. I'm sure they'll work.

I'll have to carry this out myself but that's okay.

I promise you I'll see this through.